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tuesday’s musing…

seeing beauty in the changing of seasons.. the golds,
oranges and reds that come out first.
then slowly these colors fade, and petals are withered on stems growing weak.
even in this autumnal stage
there is grace. 

 

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thursday’s musing…

“my life isn’t perfect, but it does have perfect moments” ~ Unknown ~
Indeed it does.. so many perfect moments..
this is what I try to hold on to. 

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Dreams …

“Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night.”

~ Edgar Allen Poe ~

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Color for a Grey Day..

Since it’s been grey and cold the last few days thought it would be nice to add some color to this week. I shot this while walking around Boothbay Harbor here in Maine a couple of weeks ago. I’m sure that these lovely Spring flowers aren’t too happy that it’s now back to cold and slightly snowy weather.. but wait.. it’s Maine. The weather will change quick yet again 🙂

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For The Love Of Flowers…

With the cold days and early evenings winter in Maine is in full swing. I do love the winter for it’s crisp smell in the air with hints of pine and woodsmoke. Every time I go outside I feel as if I’m showered in fresh air that washes away the static from being inside.

One of the things I do miss in Winter is seeing flowers outside. Pushing upwards towards the light with their tight buds which then morph into blossoms with colors that burst forth on the landscape. This always and forever will always brings a smile to my heart.

Once the transplant happens I will only be able to look at the flowers I love so much. I won’t be able to garden or have fresh flowers in the house. So the past week I decided that my last flowers in house (for a time) would be the beautiful Ranunculus.

Here are some images to make their beauty last well beyond their stay..

~ Peace ~

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Spring has Sprung..

Spring has finally come to Maine I’m sitting by an open window now as I type and I forgot how much I missed the soft breezes that carry with them the wonderful earthy scents from the reawakened earth. Flowers are shooting up from the once frozen ground to relish in the warm sunlight on their budding petals. The trees have their tightly compacted leaves which are about ready to burst open and unfurl to once again create a canopy of green of which I will be grateful to be sitting under once the summer gets into full swing.

Here are a couple of images showcasing Spring and all it’s beauty..

I’ll have more to come in the next few days..

peace..

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Gone but not forgotten…

Funny but I was just thinking today that I should get some flowers to help get some life and cheeriness in the house. I then get this wonderful delivery of flowers within a few hours of thinking that.. and I’m surprised to see they are from friends I used to work with.. so nice to know that while I’m not there any longer I’m still thought of.. so thank you Janet, Dan, Jen, Lynne, Tami and Vivian.. they made me cry which for once is a good thing.. 🙂

I was able to take a few pics with my cell phone.. as you can see below even Nala got a little gift in this new box to play in..

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Due to the generous amount that was given I am happy to say that I’ve been able to split them up and put them in the three rooms of my house that I am most in.. below is the kitchen..

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Here are some in the living room..

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and lastly.. my desk..

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They will also provide me with more artsy shots as I look forward to using my regular camera with these beautiful sprigs of joy. Again.. thank you guys.. perfect timing ..xoxo

~ peace ~

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Morning Breezes…

“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company… a church… a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past… we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you… we are in charge of our Attitudes.”
~ Charles R. Randell ~

It is Monday morning.. and what a beautiful morning it is.. dry air, cooler temps and the sun is shining. Though the days are in some ways getting more tiresome and difficult as the chemotherapy go goes I know that in one month they will be done for now and I can take a much needed break from them.  I would love to have just two days in a row where I feel great. Right now that is my goal.. currently it is not the way and I know that  what I’m going through now is part of the process to beat this cancer but it is growing very tiresome to not feel good everyday. Some days it can vary by hour on how I feel other days its the whole day that I’m sick.. I never thought I would be happy to see the end of summer but this year, this time I am.. even if I have to do more later or something different that won’t be fun at least I will have a little bit of time where hopefully I can catch my breath so to speak.. course I never count on anything as it can all change at the drop of a hat. All I ask if for two days in a row of feeling really good, that means no symptoms at all, no fatigue, nausea, pain, numbness in my fingers, eye sight will be back to normal (forgot to mention my eyesight has gotten much worse, evidently the chemo meds can change the shape of the lens of your eyes therefore distorting things). I think having at least two days of this will help restore my mental and physical well being.

While I’m looking forward to August 25 which will be my last chemo treatment for this round I sit here and relish in the cool breezes that are coming in the windows for they help to push away the negative and calm my being. I’m still trying to live in the moment but I’m starting to see a little light at the end of the tunnel even if the end is actually just a bend in the road that goes onto a new treatment plan, I’m ok with it.

~ peace ~

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Steeped in sadness…

“There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year’s course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word ‘happy’ would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.”
~ Carl Jung ~

Lately I’ve been beset by sadness.. at times overwhelming, most times just kind of there.  Ive been trying to figure out why exactly and I’ve come up that it’s a mix of things that have happened and are continuing to happen. First and foremost is the cancer. I think the treatments, the days of not feeling well and even the good days I’m not 100%, far from it, it’s just in comparison to the bad ones they are good. A feeling that life and time is passing me by while I watch it from the sidelines, not being able to actively participate as much as I would like. I know even when my chemo treatments stop (hopefully) in September that it’s going to take a few months for them to work their way out of my system. It’s all a bit daunting to think about at times..

I had a romantic relationship that ended as well so that has been difficult to deal with along with everything else. It is for the best but doesn’t make it any easier.

Now .. let me just say that I know I have support, I know it could be so much worse and I’m so very grateful that its not. However I feel that I do have to honor this sadness and just let myself feel it rather then push it aside and tell myself to buck up.. as the quote above states it is about a balance and while there is a part of me that is happy about how much people care and the friends I have.. I do have the sadness at the way things are at the moment and will be for a while..

I wasn’t sure if I should be honest and write that I’m feeling this way but I and you, the readers decided I should be honest in my writings so.. here I am being honest. I know things will be fine in the long run.. I have my faith and family with me which is huge. It’s just this day to day living that is testing me a bit.. but hey.. I am living and I am grateful..

thanks for letting me vent.. and the above photos were shot when Hayley and I were in Bar Harbor this past Saturday..  a very happy time to balance out the sadness talk..

~ peace ~

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My week…

“Flowers have spoken to me more than I can tell in written words. They are the hieroglyphics of angels, loved by all men for the beauty of the character, though few can decipher even fragments of their meaning.”
~Lydia Maria Child ~

It’s so nice to see so many flowers blooming so early in the season. Really helps to boost the spirits to see the beautiful colors and smell the wonderful fragrances.. fills the soul with warmth. At least that is what it does with mine.

These Lupines were taken while my sister and I took a short walk after my chemo treatment this past Wednesday. Luckily they are in my neighbors front yard so I can visit them often..

I went to a flea marker last Saturday here in Hallowell and picked up this lovely green antique bottle for only two bucks..

I also found a box of antique and newer scarfs for $5.oo.. there must have been 20-25 different styles.. most of them pretty nice.. here is just a small handful of them..

Last but not least there has been something I have been wanting to do for a while and  I finally did it this week.. nothing earth shattering but it still felt really good. I’ve started making my own dog biscuits.. it’s all natural and with only real ingredients of my own choosing.. and the dogs LOVE them.. I will be making these weekly from now on for them and changing up the flavor. These ones are carrot and ginger, the next ones will be made with crunchy peanut butter.

The week hasn’t been too bad.. has lunch with some nice people.. had good quality time with my sister and enjoyed my time here at home. While there has been other less happy things going on I’m still just trying to enjoy what is good and really appreciate what I do have rather then what I don’t have and am losing. Sometimes its not easy and I do get pretty low but I know I have faith in my heart and love of life to keep my going. Life is too short to hold on to anger and not forgive for when things don’t work out however it doesn’t mean I have to be subjected to situations that aren’t healthy or don’t add positively to my life. My life now has to be mostly positive and as stress free as possible especially if I want to beat this cancer.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.

~ peace ~

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